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WHO ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU GOING?
Evening Darshan, September 11, 1970
from "The Light of Kirpal"
[Questioner]: Do some of your initiates get to the
stage, maybe after several years, when they say, "I can't stand this any
longer. I've got to eat meat. I've got to violate the chastity regulation.
I've got to forget about keeping the diary," and then they take off and
go someplace else?
[Master]: The point is, if this happens, they are not
really hungry for something higher. They want only this life, not the other
life. That's all. They had something; they did not live up to it and, moreover,
they did not taste the sweet elixir of being in contact with the Absolute.
Sometimes it's because of society. Sometimes it's because they don't keep
their diaries. That is why all these things come up. Remember, that is
why such-like people never remain in contact.
[Q]: Sometimes I would imagine there
is such terrible pressure from family members, that satsangis give in.
[M]: I tell you. I was born in a family of meat-eaters.
As a child, I did not partake of it. Nobody can force you. One may refuse.
I can love you but it is not necessary to eat what you eat. These are limited
excuses, you know. Somebody came to India who said, "When any food is offered,
it should not be refused - in the Bible it says so." So he cannot refuse
anybody's offer of anything? They have a right to poison you? Good things
you may accept. Otherwise politely you say, "No." If somebody offers you
poison, would you accept it? It's really not poison, but it affects you.
These are only lame excuses for not refusing. If you live for some time
in contact with higher spirituality, then naturally the mind comes under
control. Now the mind does not want to give up outer enjoyments. When you
enjoy inner bliss, how can you return? In the beginning at least something
has to be done regularly.
[Q]: So it's a matter, I suppose, of not wishing to
submit to the initial discipline that's required.
[M]: That is what is strictly required, I tell you. In
the old days, demonstrations of these gifts were never given to people
at large. Only those who lived at the Master's feet for years, lived up
to what He wanted, only when they were ready, were given something. Now
the times have changed. Who can live with Master for years? So something
is given and they are asked to maintain it by self-introspection, by regular
devotion of time.
[Q]: There are many, many people, of course mostly
young men, who will spend hours training and preparing themselves for athletic
contests. In a sense, this is a similar kind of training, isn't it?
[M]: More lucrative. Such-like profit which will never
be lost. "Lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven where neither moth
nor rust doth corrupt." The main thing is, we have to leave the body. How
do you stand? What's your fate? Two things happen at death: you are to
leave the body, and you must know where to go. Is it not proper that we
should be fed now and prepare?
[Q]: But so many people these days seem to have talked
themselves into the idea that there is no further fate, that there's just
a bunch of nothingness that's going to assail them.
[M]: That's all right. When sulphuric acid is put on copper
filings, they will bubble out and disappear. There's no consciousness there.
Energy is there, of course. A train is run by an engine. No consciousness
is in the engine. You are a man, you are conscious. But after leaving the
body, there is a very important question - we should know what is what.
As a man we can do this, and in no other form of creation. Now you have
come here. You have seen this place. You have got some guide here. You
will come very confidently.
[Q]: There's a great feeling of peace here.
[M]: Yes, yet there's more peace There. All glory and
beauty lie within you. Now you don't want to leave these outward enjoyments.
Once we have some little experience of that inner bliss, we won't leave
it, you see?
[Q]: So it's keeping in training until that experience
comes through? It may be keeping in training for fifteen years.
[M]: What do these people want? They get some demonstration
of it. What is that? It may not be a lot. It is just a start, but they
get some demonstration. It is a special gift. Others who devote hours and
hours and hours to the outward performances don't get anything. They pray,
they cry, they sit down, and have their candle before them; it is all darkness
within. The main thing is you have to leave the body. Who are you? Where
are you? Where do you go? How does this body work? I think these are very
vital questions, most vital, which concern our own self. The Hindu scriptures
tell us that when the soul leaves the body, one feels the pain as if bitten
by a thousand scorpions.
[Q]: I notice that it says that, and yet there are
some reports that many people die peacefully, apparently without pain.
[M]: I tell you that may be from heart failure; if all
their thoughts - desires - remain unfulfilled, they go on circling; their
souls grovel around the earth. If a soul leaving the body at the time of
death still
wants something or is attached to somebody but cannot
have it, he grovels around the world.
[Q]: I know one relative, for example, who said just
as she was about to die, "I see Jesus here." And apparently she died in
peace.
[M]: I tell you, that's due to a reaction of the past;
but every man has not the same story behind him. She might be devoted to
Jesus and be of good character. But at that time, when past actions are
so near, the end comes only as a result of the whole life's essence. There
are various cases you'll find.
[Q]: So conceivably she wasn't in so much pain because
she had devoted her life in that direction?
[M]: Yes.
[Q]: Then there are the reports of people who have
made some of these astral trips and they say when they go into the astral
there's no pain leaving the body.
[M]: When they have learnt to leave that body, not before.
To leave the body is the first question. When you are in the habit of coming
and going daily, death is no bugbear. If you're coming from a hotter to
a cooler place, then?
[Q]: In other words, if you've learned how to do it,
then the pain isn't there?
[M]: No. And further, we should know where we are going.
After all, there are worlds beyond. Because of our backgrounds too, we
have got something which we are now earning.
[Q]: Well, the departure at death is a different departure
than, say, a departure for an astral flight. The departure at death goes
through a different door with Kal waiting there to gobble you up, whereas
he doesn't wait to gobble you up when you go out for an astral flight.
[M]: Astral flight - that's just hovering around the world.
Quite near the earth, not beyond. I went to London. There was a famous
man there. He charged five pounds to have astral people talk through him.
So some friends of mine said, "Let us go and see." The whole room was dark,
pitch dark. We sat down. Nothing happened. There was very much acting and
posing going on. He'd speak like a child, and strain himself: (The Master
imitates the fake trembly voice of the medium) "The atmosphere is not favorable
tonight - I cannot come." You see? It was his own voice. A man can train
himself to talk that way in a dark room. There's fraud outside; I'm afraid
there's a hundred times more black marketing inside. Those people are acting
and posing. That's why people have lost faith in this
work.
[Q]: Too much fakery and commercialism?
[M]: Yes, yes. Too much propaganda. I tell you, one American
was initiated by me - I've got the initiation report in his own handwriting.
Then he wrote to me, "The Master's Form appears to me inside." That
Form used to speak to him, dictate to him, inside. And all that dictation
was put into
a book and the manuscript was sent to me in 1963. Then
later on he started a new religion.
[Q]: Yes. I've heard of him.
[M]: Later he sent me another letter, "Return my book."
That is what such - like people will do. They had some little thing, and
got stuck fast there. Now he's carrying on propaganda. He says he was never
initiated by me. He was initiated in 1955. Some people get stuck fast on
the way. This little ego is very difficult to get rid of unless there's
some kind of protection. This is a living example. I need not mention his
name.
[Q]: I don't think he mentions Your name either.
[M]: I don't think he would. I don't like to say things
about anyone. If any man does well, all right. I returned the book. That
was dictated by me, and that's all right. He changed that book before printing;
where he mentioned my name, he changed it to another guru's name. So such
is the fate of these people. People are fed up with these masters, gurus,
and sadhus. Why? Only for this reason. I told you there is black marketing
outside but hundreds and thousands times more black marketing inside.
[Q]: Do You ever feel at times that You would just
like to stay here at Your home in the foothills of the Himalaya Mountains
and not issue forth again to the hustle and the bustle of Delhi and other
parts of the world?
[M]: I'm bound, you see. I am directed what to do. I am
a mere puppet. There is no question of my will now. That's all I can say.
Even in the busiest of times, I've not planned first.
[Q]: The karma of most people is already laid out.
Is it possible for a Master, however, to say that, "All right, point one
and point three of that karma will be interchanged. " Can He do that?
[M]: What do you mean?
[Q]: Well, I mean if we come down
here with a certain amount of Pralabdh Karma that has to be paid off, is
there necessarily any order that it has to follow in being paid off? Can
a Master say, "Well, I'm going to hold back on this portion of your karma
and you won't have to pay it off until you're sixty-seven years old?
[M]: In one's own case or in the case of others?
[Q]: In the case of others. In the case of His initiates.
[M]: I tell you, the Master is to wind up all reactions
to the best He can. The initiate prays, "Oh God, I pray I should go to
Your Home forever, that I should not return." So He's working to wind up
all actions and reactions. Most of them are paid off in dreams, and like
that their severity is polished down to the minimum possible. Whatever
reactions cannot be set aside, you've got to pass through, but with a little
help on the side. Generally in the life of an initiate, he'll find many
changes in his life.
His life history according to astrology does not stand
true. Those who have transcended the starry skies are under the control
of One Who goes beyond those planes; there astrology does not stand true
- things are changed. Many things are omitted, sometimes some things are
delayed, some things are
minimized.
[Q]: You would not advise people to pay too much attention
to astrology then?
[M]: Those things won't stand true always. Many things
are cut down, eliminated.
[Q]: Is it at least a basis by which one can judge
someone's character?
[M]: By face you mean, or by writing? After all, stars
have some effect, some effect. I'm only speaking of the destiny of those
under the custody of Someone Who goes higher than that.
[Q]: Actually, I suppose, I feel a little embarrassed
at having sunk to this low subject when we were talking about higher matters.
Is there something in this area here in the Himalaya Mountains that makes
for better meditations? Or is it purely the presence of the Master?
[M]: The presence of the Master, of course, is of great
help in that. Solitude also goes to help - any atmosphere which is not
poisoned by the thoughts of worldly people. Even Christ used to run away
to the mountains, to the wilderness.
[Q]: Let's see. When Christ was driven to the wilderness
He was taken up on the mountain and told, "You can have all of this if
You'll just bow down." He said, "Get thee behind me."
[M]: Yes, it also happened to Guru Nanak. It happened
with others, too.
[Q]: This temptation then actually occurs at a certain
place on the inner planes?
[M]: Yes, in meditation. I need not mention by the way,
the Negative Power tells me all that is going on in the world; everywhere
you see trouble nowadays. Why are there troubles? He says, "I am bound
to do it. After all, this work has been given to me. Those who are not
good, they must have punishment. So You remove (souls) from this place,
but this I won't quit. My work has been allotted to me to carry on."
[Q]: Is the Negative Power an actual person?
[M]: No. That very Power is no personality question. Just
the power that is going out is called Negative Power. What is going in,
That is called the Christ Power, God Power, Master Power going into expression.
[Q]: But does the Negative Power on the inner planes
ever take the form of something that might took like a person to us?
[M]: Yes, it materializes but it has no special form.
There is no special form, of course. But he is a very honest judge, very
honest judge. One thing, he won't let anybody go out of his control, out
of his pale. He'll give everything to you, but not let you go out of his
control.
[Q]: How much will he fight to keep that from happening?
[M]: He'll fight up to the third plane. Beyond that he'll
cry, "Oh, my man is gone."
[Q]: He does not lose very many, does he?
[M]: Yes, of course, there are many, not innumerable,
but many, you can say.
[Q]: Hopefully he'll lose us?
[M]: Yes, he'll cry. Not will cry, but he cried because
of those who got out of his power.
[Q]: Was that story that's told about Kal a true one,
that he told Sat Purush that he couldn't be happy up there and wanted his
own realm?
[M]: That is a way of expression. After all, this power
has been given by Whom? Suppose I give you now one example. There is a
king. He appoints a commander-in-chief. He's the appointing authority.
And he's also the appointing authority of a viceroy. But their functions
are different. The commander-in-chief never says, "I convey to you the
orders of the King." He says, "I order you." Because he fully knows that
power has been given to him from the higher power. He has so many colonels
and majors. They get a very handsome salary and many concessions but he
won't let those go out of his control. He'll haul them up, court martial
them. When the city is in trouble it is handed over to the military. It
punishes some men and others are set to put the condition of the town in
order. But the viceroy never says, "I say;" he says, "I convey to you the
orders of the King." All these avatars: Lord Krishna, Rama, and others,
their duty is a different one. They come to punish the wicked, help those
who are righteous and set the world in order. Saints' ways are different.
They don't punish anyone; They seek to bring them around, you see. Their
work is just to give them contact with God and let them go back to the
Father's Home, not to come back as a prisoner. They might come back as
a teacher. That's the difference. They depopulate the world. The avatar,
you see, keeps the world in order, does not let the population grow less.
[Q]: Does each Saint have a quota of souls that He
is to bring back to Sat Purush?
[M]: A limited amount, of course. Each Saint has His own
work to do. The Power is the same, but Their functions are different. Each
has His own duty; He does it and goes Home.
[Q]: That figure that always comes up from the Bible
is that a hundred and forty-four thousand are going to be saved. Presumably
that was true around the year one A.D.?
[M]: How many? That's only for each Saint, you see. Each
Saint has His day. What did Christ say? Do you remember? "As long as I
am in the world, I am the Light of the world."
[Q]: I think that may have been lost in translation
in some editions of the Bible, though.
[M]: No. It still stands.
[Q]: Is it there, "As long as I am in the world?"
[M]: Yes. Strange enough the Christians themselves don't
know the Bible. I'm not quoting from my own. Read St. John, I think it
is the ninth chapter, verse five. Of course, that's true. Then He said,
"I shall never leave thee nor forsake thee till the end of the world."
Whom He took under His custody, He won't leave. He's responsible for initiates
until they reach the true Home of the Father.
[Q]: "Till the end of the world," how should that
be translated?
[M]: That means until that soul reaches the Father's Home.
[Q]: While we're talking about things out of the Bible,
You recall the story, of course, about the rich young man who came to Jesus
and said, "Lord, how can I be saved?" Jesus looked at him and said, "Give
away all that thou hast and come follow me, "and the young man went away
sorrowing for he had a lot of possessions and then Jesus turned and said,
'It's going to be easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye than
for a rich man to enter the kingdom of Heaven." Is that valid?
[M]: It means the same thing. Those who are attached so
much to worldly things, how can they go back to God? They won't even want
to hear about leaving this world. When they leave it, they will be hovering
around the world.
[Q]: Is it possible to have possessions of this world
without being attached to them?
[M]: Yes, surely. I think you can be attached to only
one, not many. You go where you are attached. What is your ruling passion
in life? If you have got a ruling passion for the world, you will come
back. A man who is so much given up to the worldly things and enjoyments,
naturally cannot go - it is easier to pass a camel through the eye of a
needle rather than for a rich man to get into Heaven. You are not to think
of the body you are about to leave - how can one who is given up to all
attachments leave?
[Q]: But it wouldn't be possible to just sit back
and wait for an income to come in. I mean put it in a bank and wait for
interest to come and then devote all your time to spirituality and let
the income maintain you.
[M]: This is one thing, of course, but suppose the bank
fails? Put it in the lap of God. What happened in Panama when I went last
time? I gave my passport to the Pan American Company to get a visa for
South America. The Panamanians were fighting with the Americans at the
time - the very day I arrived the building was burned down and my passport
also got burnt. You see? I could not go. So suppose the bank fails! You
still have to leave the body; maybe now or in ten years or twenty years;
you may go to sleep tonight and never rise.
[Q]: Well, would you advise everybody to sell everything
or give away everything they have and come and follow You?
[M]: I advise, "Live by the sweat of your brow," by honest
earnings. Maintain your families with whom God has united you. It is the
flowing pen of God which has brought you together. This is one thing; and
never sow more seeds to be sprouted forth again. Your ruling passion, your
ruling attachment, should be with God. Further, man should live not for
his own self but for others. Animals do live for themselves. They fight
others with their horns to save their children. If man does the same,
where's his superiority? Man is the ruling power, you
see; the highest in all creation, he has just to support the younger brothers,
animals, birds, reptiles; they are all members of the family of God. They
are younger brothers.
[Q]: We haven't been doing very well by them.
[M]: That is what I say. We are the heads. The head of
the family should look after the welfare of all, and we go and eat them.
It's not common sense. I love you and eat your children. We say we love
God; all this creation is His. Here we have got cobras. If you have love
for them, love radiates. They also have some sense, you see. "Be wise as
serpents," Christ said. So our thoughts react, they use self-defense against
us; attack. It so happened at Delhi, a Satsang had just started and a cobra
came. There were some two or three hundred people sitting. This cobra came
just in front of me and sat like that. To shoot this cobra wouldn't help.
The talk was going on. He was just looking at me for more than an hour
and a half. When the talk was over, he slipped away. They said, "We should
kill him!" But why? He did not harm anyone. We are man, you see. Great
is man. They're all our children. It is you who have spoiled the children. All
nature is beautiful except when tormented by the hand of man.
[Q]: And man will have to pay for this?
[M]: Reactions. Reactions. You should love them. Generally
in the case of serpents, they don't harm any child. Sometimes a child takes
a snake in his mouth and it does not harm him.
[Q]: Is there any chance that when you kill a snake
you might be killing an old mother-in-law from a previous reincarnation?
[M]: May or may not be, who knows? But serpents are only
those who are very greedy people; those who were hoarding money. I tell
you one man came here and he killed a female cobra that lived here. The
male cobra came here for months to seek out that man. But he was never
here. They're very smart. We have a glorious world but we have spoiled
it by our own thoughts.
[Q]: In a statement You made this afternoon, I still
am not exactly certain what You meant when You said that it was harder
to become a man than to see God.
[M]: It is easier to meet God but it is harder to make
a man. So it should be: man first, and then Him.
[Q]: Well, I think if you see God you would automatically
have all these karmas wiped out and become a perfect man.
[M]: You're right, but what I mean is, to have an ideal
man is very difficult. To find God is not. That takes time - to make a
man takes time. The time factor is a necessity. It is not done in
one day.
[Q]: But if you see God, what do you care about becoming
a perfect man? Why do you care?
[M]: You get a glimpse of It; to get a glimpse of It is
something else. You see the sun for a while but if you are absorbed in
the sun, then?
[Q]: But only the perfect man can continue to see
God?
[M]: Only the perfect man continually sees God, that's
right. That means that righteousness is necessary. Righteousness: right
thoughts, right words, right deeds. That is why this diary is kept until
we are perfect. Man should change inside, not outside. Chastity of thought,
word, and deed. That's the first thing required. The second thing is perseverance.
These two things are required.
[Q]: Is the Master Power going to stop this explosion
from coming that seems so inevitable?
[M]: Many will be saved who will turn their faces to Him.
That's all I can say. The only thing is, we say something but mean something
else. That's the trouble. If the governments really want peace, they should
have an attitude of live and let others live. Make their countries so advanced
and peace giving that everyone would want to come over there. Each government
should make their country into a blooming garden - let everyone come and
enjoy and help others bring their gardens into a blooming state. That should
be the attitude.
[Q]: You're painting a very dismal state of affairs
tonight. Can't You offer us any hope?
[M]: I have said - those who turn their faces to Him will
be saved. There's hope. I'm talking about the general state of affairs.
The tendency is to remain and enjoy; headlong down they are going. They
speak of peace, they speak of peace - lip service, but they have turned
away. There's trouble going on everywhere. Right understanding is required.
This is what the Masters did in the past. They went out to give right understanding
to the government and wake up. Anyhow, it is past the hands of the son
of man - that much is sure. But there's awakening also and there's a good
side. There are conferences all meeting together; and now the trend is
to unite all nations.
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